I was gonna record a vlog to go with this (including a new song!). But, I didn’t get around to it. I’ll try to get it out this weekend, maybe. I have been digging through my old practice tapes and recording new demos for a couple of months now. I am not happy with a lot of it. But, you always have to dig through a lot of shit to find anything useful. Since I haven’t put out anything in a long time, I have been contributing to other people’s projects. I was asked by Uncle Ghoulie to provide some artwork and sounds to Truth Porn Militia – No Budget Radio Podcast. So, that is cool. I will be getting that out soon. There have also been some zines and other things requesting my input. So, I haven’t been completely unproductive, I guess.
I’m really beginning to wonder if maybe I should just give away my notes & artwork to let someone else make my movies. At least then they would get produced SOMEHOW. Tim Burton had almost nothing to do with making Tim Burton’s The Nightmare Before Christmas, yet his name is still in the title. He just gave his old sketchbook to another director and said, “Here. Knock yourself out.” Good idea? Bad idea? I don’t know. But, it looks like if I’m gonna produce it, it will likely be a few years until it it is done. Even if I cut costs to the absolute bone and it looks like dogshit, I don’t think I can get it done.
I’m crossing my fingers and hoping that I can get Theee Urban SpaceCat finally going this month. I should have enough raw material for a few issues already. I’ve been continually painting, drawing, recording, writing, etc. It really comes down to paying for putting it out there. I’ll deal with other expenses later, if it becomes necessary.
After over a year of keeping my stuff in storage, lacking enough funds, I recently had to let go of my storage unit. I have downsized a lot of it. So, at least I can fit everything in my grandmother’s garage (between the Christmas decorations and patio furniture). She gave me a nice bookshelf that was no longer wanted. So, I finally have somewhere to keep what is left of my vinyl LPs. I was very disappointed to realize how much of my collection that I’ve sold off.
She also gave me a free pizza promotional card that she got in the mail from Domino’s Pizza. I later brought the pizza back to her house. She, my nephew Michael, and I enjoyed a large deluxe. Mmmmmm.
I gotta finish cleaning up here, soon. There is an apartment inspection coming Monday. The landlord is making sure that no bed bugs have returned. Thankfully, the place has been pest-free for a year now. As a matter of fact, it was during the bug extermination last winter that I began renting my storage unit. So, it lasted one whole year.
I just got a small loan to cover my rent problem (last month’s check bounced!). I needed to pay two month’s rent and late/returned check fees IMMEDIATELY or I would get evicted. I’m not sure how much more financial Jiu-Jitsu I can pull off before it finally catches up with me. The van has a lot of mechanical problems needing fixing. I still cannot afford to put insurance on it. I’m risking jail time for driving without it (a misdemeanor in Michigan!). I’m in debt to my eyeballs to doctors & hospitals, credit cards, collection agencies, etc.
I set up a Patreon account. Maybe, I can find a little help from some folks, to fix my money situation. It is a long shot, I guess. But, what have I got to lose? I will post music, videos, and other stuff for patrons that won’t get released anywhere else. I’ll be adding more bonuses for supporters (t-shirts, stickers, magnets, flamethrowers, meat cannons, etc.) when I have them available. Any assistance is appreciated! Thanks.
1) Get the damn cassette-zines published fer chrissakes!
a) It shouldn’t be so damn difficult. Rather than stick to a strict schedule, as I had planned, I will probably just be putting them out as I am capable of. It could be an issue every few months. It could be a deluge of material within a few weeks. I don’t know.
b) Putting out some vinyl and getting it distributed would be nice too, if I can get it done.
c) Make more music & art.
d) Making some music videos might help getting The Island of Misfit Noise Movie off of the ground, as I accumulate more equipment and resources. It would help me add more videos to my vlogs too.
e) Get the legal business side of things taken care of.
2) Perform some live shows again. It has been a long time.
a) I SUCK, SUCK, SUCK at booking gigs. I think almost every show that I’ve played was set up by other bandmates, or invitations from venues and other bands (not including free parking lot “guerilla gigs”).
b) Playing out-of-state would be nice. The closest I have come to this is driving / roadying for Mog Stunt Team and a cancelled gig in New York City with The Impaler and N2-Submission.
c) Solo shows will probably just be me on bass & vocals with backing tapes. If I’m lucky, I might be able to set up some sort of video projection backdrop and lightshow. I hate this. It doesn’t feel like a “real” band or anything without at least a drummer up there with me. Performing Dadaist noise shows as Mike Damn Nobody is a little different. It isn’t supposed to make sense.
d) Island of Misfit Noise shows would be nice, if anybody wants to do it. I consider this more of a collaborative project with whoever is interested than just “my band”. We all have input into original material. If they want to play any of my solo stuff too, that is fine by me. A basic line-up that I would like to have is:
i) Myself on bass & baritone guitars, vocals, and Dictaphone tapes.
ii) A decent drummer.
iii) A “Junk Percussionist”.
iv) Two guitarist / keyboardists (if they can sing, that would be great too).
3) Set up some art gallery shows, if that is possible. Put some paintings & stuff out there.
4) Pay off some goddamn debts and dig myself out of this hole.
5) Improve my mental health and get better organized.
6) Find a new doctor, who is closer and less difficult to get an appointment with.
7) Have my eyes checked-out and possibly get glasses or contact lenses.
8) Fix or replace the van (and other broken gear).
9) Downsize more stuff.
10) But, get a bike. Get out more.
11) Lose some weight. I’m too fat.
12) Things to give up;
b) Negative Thinking
c) Fear of Failure
d) Fear of Success
e) Negative Self-Talk
g) Depending on Others for Motivation or Help. It isn’t coming.