Mike Nobody - GLITCH Portait 022

“Cute, cool, and creepy”, is how I have been described by some.
Usually, I am classified by my contemporaries as an outsider artist – musician.
Davin Brainard (time Stereo) and Warren DeFever (His Name Is Alive) observed that I do not intentionally TRY to be perceived as weird, that I just naturally AM….. making comparisons to Wesley Willis and Daniel Johnston. I guess that I will just go along with those assessments.

Bass, Baritone, and other Guitars /

Electronic & Junkyard Percussion /

Sound Collage & Production /

Keyboards & Toys /

Plunderphonics & Noise /

Songwriting & Composition /

Words & Vocals /

Mixed-Media Paintings & Other Art

I enjoy creating what I refer to as “Prog-Punk Noise-Rock”, an eclectic pastiche of many genres and styles. I have collaborated with many other artists and often utilize an unusual hybrid bass + guitar rig.

I have always been deeply into art and music; drawing, painting, playing with tape recorders and making noise. I built my first guitar from a badly beaten-up body that I found in someone’s trash. A friend’s dad gave me the electrical guts from an unknown 1950’s guitar. Additional parts were purchased from a music store and improvised from pieces of junk.

When I was a kid, back in the 1980’s, I was just a runt of the Detroit hardcore punk / heavy metal scene . Lacking enough money to buy any really good equipment, I purchased a cheap microphone at a pawn shop and passed myself off as a vocalist. I sang in whatever groups that I could find, to gain experience and learn whatever that I could. Mostly, it was shitty cover bands, playing in basements, getting yelled at by uninvited drunks that we suck. Eventually, I improved my bass & guitar skills, playing in many short-lived groups that went nowhere.

I wrote for The Jam Rag, a widely-read local music paper, while still a teenager, making friends with other musicians and artists along the way. During the 1990’s I was a cameraman, roadie, and occasional collaborator with Princess Dragon-Mom, Mog Stunt Team, His Name Is Alive, etc.. I also performed in a few experimental noise groups; Bionics, Edible Audio, Fresh Farm Raised Catfish, etc.

The Island of Misfit Noise began in the summer of 1998 with only Mystic MarshaKat and myself. She played keyboards & guitar. I played bass & guitar. Our duo’s name changed a couple of times, before settling on the IOMN. We had both been members of N2-Submission, featuring The Impaler “Detroit’s Vampire Poet”. Other musicians came and went during a period of 15 years, with the both of us being the only constants of the group. She finally also left in early 2013.

MarshaKat and I remain friends. She is an experienced professional photographer and business manager, among many other skills that she possesses. She will probably continue to assist me in some capacity, just not as a full-time band member.

I resurrected the IOMN as a “virtual band” recording project in late 2014, with collaborators from Michigan to Australia. Exchanging music back-and-forth online until we had completed enough songs for the EP, “Stone Soup & Mulligan Stew”. The style of music we made is very freeform. Depending on the contributions put into it, it can range from pop-sounding and accessible to extremely noisy and irritating. A few members from the IOMN have joined me in other projects. Some of them have experience in film & television and are working toward producing a low-budget science fiction movie with me, appropriately titled The Island of Misfit Noise.

After years of trial-and-error, I have come to the conclusion that I simply lack the necessary social skills to keep a stable group together. I tried for ages to put an ideal band together. But, I could never manage it, not for very long. I am focusing on composition and recording, for the time being. I will return to live performance again when I am certain that the project won’t immediately disintegrate. Assembling the right line-up and keeping it intact is a huge obstacle. I would like to eventually have a live group again:

  • Myself on bass / vocals / tapes.
  • An open-minded creative drummer, who could easily switch between different styles. Someone who is comfortable playing with additional percussionists, drum machines, tapes, samples, noise, etc..
  • Two or three guitarists who also contribute additional percussion, keyboards, samplers, or other instruments.

Maybe I will just go back to replacing musicians as I go along…. again. I thought about possibly booking a few shows, playing 1/2 a set alone. Then, whoever is willing to get onstage with me, whoever shows up, can join in as part of the band. It is not the greatest idea. But, it is the best that I can come up with right now.

Some of my current projects;

  • Mike Damn Nobody is the moniker of my harsh noise project, similar to artists such as Merzbow, Masonna, Solmania, Hanatarash, C.C.C.C., MSBR, Incapacitants, Evil Moisture, The Haters, etc.. I might book some gigs for this again, eventually. Recordings are available digitally and also as “RecycleTapes”.
  • Thee Urban SpaceCat (Cassette-Zine) is an upcoming publication of art, music, commentary, found objects, and almost anything else packaged with a cassette tape or compact disc. I intend to publish an issue every three or four months (depending on my finances). It is intended as an outlet for all of my artistic endeavors in one package, modeled after the letters that I have sent to pen-pals for decades.
  • The Island of Misfit Noise musician collective, comics, movies, and all manner of media

♛ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ ♛

I have received some frequently asked questions from collaborators. So, I will just add this here… if anybody really wants to know:

Gear Geek Stuff:

I don’t have anywhere to jam, just an apartment.

I have two multi-track machines;

  • one cassette (Tascam 488 MKII 8-track Portastudio)
  • one digital (Roland VS-1688 Digital Audio Workstation)

On my computer, I use whatever freeware programs that are available. I also collect various cassette, microcassette, and reel-to-reel tape recorders.

I don’t have very high quality microphones;

  • an old abused Radio Shack mic
  • another stolen from a karaoke machine
  • and several cheaper models scattered around
  • I also have a modified telephone receiver, with an XLR jack installed.

I prefer recording electrical instruments directly through preamps or Line 6 PODs and mic-ing up a “room sound” for acoustic tracks. Analogue tape is good to get a saturated compression sound, well-suited to percussion instruments or creating other tape noises. Digital is good at getting a cleaner sound. I’m recording the bulk of my material at home with whatever tools that are available to me, then adding overdubs and finishing the final mixing somewhere with a good engineer and higher quality facilities.

I used to have a homemade drum kit, affectionately referred to as my “ShitKit”. It was a hodgepodge of cheap drums acquired from the Salvation Army for $50 dollars. Instead of cymbals, I added pieces of scrap metal and junk, for a clunkier sound. Unfortunately, it was mistakenly hauled away by scrappers from a friend’s garage. I am trying to rebuild another, gradually, but have nowhere to practice.

I have some cheap keyboards and electronic drum pads. I am collecting different models of drum machines and samplers as I go along. If I had the money, I would like to invest in a proper drum kit of my own someday. I prefer acrylic drums, for their tonal consistency and durability. Zickos invented them and are the best, IMHO. I am also impressed by the Korg Wavedrum Global Edition, Roland SPD-30 Octapad, and Roland TD-12 V-Drums.

I am always making improvements to my setup. I would like to build custom instruments for myself, eventually. I will have to get by with what I have, until I can afford it. I would love to add other instruments to my arsenal; maybe a Rickenbacker 4001 bass, a Fender Bass VI, or a Fender Baritone Guitar.

I play the bass and guitar more alike each other than most players do, I think. My rig has evolved over time into something unusual, combining bass & guitar together. I  split the instrument signal three ways, with various effects, into a “sonic sandwich”;

  • one through a bass amp (SWR)
  • one through a lead guitar amp (Marshall)
  • one direct to PA (Line 6 POD)

Vocals are divided between ordinary vocal microphones and a modified telephone receiver through various effects.

Miscellaneous samples and noise collages are prepared on cassette tapes, then replayed with a pair of foot-controlled Dictaphone machines, fed directly into the PA.

I have two basses;

  • a 1987 Guild Pilot with tremolo bar
  • a Jay Turser “Beatle Bass” knock-off

The shorter-scale viola style bass is intended for playing cleanly, three-fingerstyle. Typically, I use recycled copper/nylon picks with the Guild Pilot, for more attack and articulation.

I have a Line 6 Variax guitar, to achieve a wide variety of tones.

I also have an Ibanez RX-Series guitar with a Seymour Duncan Humbucker installed at the bridge. I usually keep it tuned down to “Drop-A”, like a baritone, because I’m too broke to buy a real one.

An unknown acoustic guitar sits in the case most of the time.

Past experiments in circuit-bending and modified instrument building have yielded mixed results.

Creativity Stuff:

My songwriting style is a far-reaching mixture of wildly diverse sounds juxtaposed together. I like combining a bit of everything, when I can.

Sometimes it is harmonious.

Sometimes it is schizophrenic.

Sometimes it is simple and accessible.

Sometimes it is noisy and irritating

It can be almost anything, depending on the song. I am now writing within three basic categories;

  1. Solo. Material that I can play alone without additional players.
  2. Band. Material that requires other musicians to perform live.
  3. Album. Material that is very difficult or impossible to be played live at all, recorded solely for album releases.

If there were references that I could make to my “sound”, it would be a pretty damn long list. Some notable influences include;

  • ¡Tchkung!
  • Alice Donut
  • Bad Brains
  • Bad Religion
  • Beatles
  • Beck
  • Jared Warren (KARP, Big Business, Melvins)
  • Bootsy Collins (Funkadelic)
  • Bran Flakes
  • Robert Smith (The Cure)
  • Brian May (Queen)
  • Buzz Osbourne (Melvins)
  • Captain Beefheart (The Magic Band)
  • Carl Stalling
  • Caroliner
  • Chris Squire (Yes)
  • Chuck Mosley (Faith No More, Bad Brains)
  • Cliff Burton (Metallica)
  • Comets on Fire
  • Comparative Anatomy
  • Cop Shoot Cop
  • Crash Worship
  • Crass
  • Daft Punk
  • Dale Flattum (Steel Pole Bath Tub, Tumor Circus, Milk Cult)
  • Daniel Johnston
  • David Bowie
  • David Grohl (Scream, Nirvana, Foo Fighters)
  • Dennis Dunaway (Alice Cooper)
  • Destroy All Monsters
  • Gerald Casale (Devo)
  • Bob Log III (Doo Rag)
  • Doug Henderson (Krackhouse, Spongehead)
  • Dust Brothers (Beastie Boys, Beck)
  • East Bay Ray & Jello Biafra (Dead Kennedys)
  • Einstürzende Neubauten
  • Evolution Control Committee
  • Fat Mike (NOFX)
  • Wayne Coyne (The Flaming Lips)
  • Flipper
  • Frank Zappa (Mothers of Invention)
  • Geddy Lee (Rush)
  • Geezer Butler & Toni Iommi (Black Sabbath)
  • Gene Simmons & Ace Frehley (KISS)
  • Godheadsilo
  • Greg Ginn & Kira Roessler (Black Flag)
  • Grotus
  • Hazil Adkins
  • Helios Creed (Chrome)
  • Hide (Ultra Bidé)
  • Holy Fuck
  • Ian Mackaye (Minor Theat, Fugazi)
  • Ichirou Agata (Melt-Banana)
  • Iggy Pop & The Stooges
  • Jaco Pastorius (Weather Report)
  • Jad Fair (1/2 Japanese, Strobe Talbot)
  • Jerry Garcia (Grateful Dead)
  • Duane Denison & David Wm. Sims (The Jesus Lizard)
  • Jimi Hendrix
  • Joey Shithead Keithley (D.O.A.)
  • John Bonham & Jimmy Page (Led Zeppelin)
  • John Oswald (Plunderphonics)
  • John S. Hall & Bradford Reed (King Missile)
  • John Zorn (Naked City, Painkiller)
  • Juan Garcia Esquivel
  • Jucifer
  • Kevin Rutmanis (The Cows, Melvins, Hepa/Titus)
  • Killdozer
  • Larry Graham (Sly & the Family Stone, Graham Central Station)
  • Kevin Strickland & Larissa Strickland (Laughing Hyenas)
  • Lemmy Kilmister (Motörhead)
  • Les Claypool (Primus)
  • Lightning Bolt
  • Black Pus
  • Malcolm Young & Angus Young (AC/DC)
  • Marc Bolan (T. Rex)
  • Mark Sandman (Morphine)
  • Masahiko Ohno (Solmania)
  • Masonna
  • Curt Kirkwood & Cris Kirkwood (Meat Puppets)
  • Masami Akita (Merzbow)
  • Mike Patton (Faith No More, Mr. Bungle, Fantomas, Tomahawk)
  • Mike Watt (Minutemen, fIREHOSE)
  • Negativland
  • Omoide Hatoba
  • Pat Smear (Germs, Nirvana, Foo Fighters)
  • Paul Leary (Butthole Surfers, Melvins)
  • Pussy Galore
  • R. Stevie Moore
  • Ramones
  • Raymond Scott
  • The Residents
  • Rob Wright & John Wright (NoMeansNo)
  • Roky Erikson (13th Floor Elevators)
  • Root Boy Slim & The Sex Change Band
  • Scott Lucas (Local H)
  • Sebadoh
  • The Shaggs
  • Shannon Selberg (The Cows, Heroine Sheiks)
  • Shockabilly
  • Shonen Knife
  • Six Finger Satellite
  • Skeleton Key
  • Sonic Youth
  • Kim Thayil (Soundgarden)
  • Space Streakings
  • Stan Lee & Leonard Graves Phillips (The Dickies)
  • Stanley Clarke
  • Steve Albini (Big Black, Rapeman, Shellac)
  • Subhumans
  • Superconductor
  • Syd Barrett (Pink Floyd)
  • Tatsuya Yoshida (Ruins)
  • They Might Be Giants
  • Thin Lizzy
  • Throbbing Gristle
  • Tom Morello & Tim Commerford (Rage Against The Machine)
  • Tom Waits
  • Tragic Mulatto
  • Victims Family
  • Violent Onsen Geisha
  • Ween
  • Wesley Willis
  • Wildman Fischer
  • Yamatsuka Eye (Boredoms, Hanatarash, UFO or Die)
  • Zach Hill (Hella)
  • Zen Guerrilla
  • ZZ Top

, etc., etc., etc., etc., etc., etc.

In the past, I bounced my ideas off of other bandmates to get a feel for what their capabilities and preferences were. I depended very much on their input to filter my ideas through, to find the direction that we were going in. It helped to motivate me. I was constantly trying to get feedback and be as democratic as possible. But, this approach also greatly slowed us down, frustrating everyone. In hindsight, it was kinda like driving a car with the parking brake always on.

I have been diagnosed with severe depression, social anxiety disorder, and have obsessive-compulsive tendencies. Left by myself, I don’t accomplish very much. Paradoxically, I am more prolific when others get out of my way and let me work alone. It is a Catch-22 that I have been unable to escape. I am changing my methodology, being more decisive and writing more independently. It is taking time for me to adjust to this.

My skills are pretty good, not virtuosic… but still pretty good. I think that I am a better bassist than a guitarist. Most musicians that I have worked with never used sheet music and I am out of practice. Although, I would like to get back into the habit again. I don’t believe that I am very good at improvisation, though I have done it when required. If I have to make up something quickly, on the fly, I am more comfortable making simple rhythms and random noises.

I tried for years and years to arrange dual drummers together, Grateful Dead style. It was great while it lasted. We had a Miles Davis “Bitches Brew” kinda jam happening a few times. But, most drummers are simply not into that, apparently. Maybe if the guitarists were to double on extra percussion, part-time, then the main drummer would still be interested. I have been told that drummers often prefer to be guitarists, that this is a common thing. I suppose that makes some sense. But, I really prefer someone who enjoys drumming. Someone who spends time improving their skills, y’know?


I tried to take up drumming. But, my foot coordination was terrible and I ended up positioning the bass drum sideways, timpani-style, playing it like Moe Tucker (Velvet Underground). If I am just recording all of the instruments by myself, I am unsure if I could accomplish everything that I want to.

My vocals tend to be on the high and nasally side. I sometimes give it a little growl on the low end, with effects added.

There are not many groups that I believe I would fit into if I didn’t begin from scratch. I never had any delusions about “making it big”. I am content if I make enough money to cover expenses, have a good dinner, and pay a few bills. I have two Facebook groups to exchange music and talk (one public, one private).


If you want to check out upcoming events, or items available, add yourself to my mailing list.

Mike Nobody: One-Cat-Band

MikeyCat OneCatBand

I was not feeling well for a couple of days.

I am doing better now.

While making a mixtape for a friend, yesterday, I was listening to many musical duos and one-man-bands.

It got me thinking of ways that I could condense songs written for a five-piece group into a one-man-band format.

Not something I relish doing.

But, I feel like it is a matter of necessity, if I am ever going to get anything substantial done soon.

One-man-bands commonly are one person who sings and plays guitar while drumming with their feet.

My foot coordination is TERRIBLE, though.

I am working on ways around little problems like that.

But, basically, I will be playing bass & singing through my usual odd setup (it may be a little stripped-down for live performing) and playing my hodgepodge junk drum set, the ShitKit.

The original ShitKit got hauled away, mistakenly, awhile ago.

So, I am working on building a better one, a new-and-improved “ShitKit 2.0”.

It may be a slow, gradual, process.

Some pieces are cheap or free.

Others are a little pricey.

But, I will get it finished, eventually.

Anyway, I may alternate between the bass or drums.

I may play some parts simultaneously, if I can.

I will probably require my Dictaphone machine and taped drum machines, samples, keyboards, whatever.

I will work it out, somehow.

The first issue of “Thee Urban SpaceCat (CassetteZine)” will likely contain some of this material inside.

I will try to get that out as soon as I can.

The most common hurdle, for me, is financing.

But, maybe i can find cheaper ways of getting it done.


Mike Nobody =^.^=

Non-Stop Nothing

Three Laws of Art
I need to make copies of this card and keep one on me.

I have been fighting a killer headache for two days.

Been trying to sleep it off.

It keeps coming back.

Migraine strength aspirin helps for a little while, but just a little.

I have been wanting to work on music again.

Can’t make myself do anything, though.

I tried drawing for a little bit.

But, the headaches behind my eyeballs make me stop.

Maybe it is my blood pressure.

I dunno.

I take my blood pressure meds with my psychotropics.

After forgetting to take them for a few days, maybe this is the price I pay.

November, November…

I Just Want To Get My Shit Together

Being poor gets so exhausting.

I am just tired of being tired of being broke all the time.

None of the jobs that I applied for have been interested in hiring me.

Probably because I am too old, unskilled, and disabled… just a hunch.

I found some possible parts to rebuild my new ShitKit with; a cheap beginner’s set at Value World, a truck spring, and an empty propane tank for free on Craigslist.

But, I can’t afford to buy anything, not even oil & gas to go get the free shit.

I am living on ramen noodles and peanut butter until my bridge card gets paid, and I only get $16/mo for THAT.

A lot of the problem with being poor is that ANY minor setback can fuck you up for months.

A traffic ticket leads to more expenses (like renewing car insurance), which leads to carrying overdrafts on your bank account for several months, which leads to compounded fees, etc.

Then, by the time you can dig yourself out of one hole, SOMETHING ELSE happens and starts it all over again.

Vehicle problems are good at that.

Living on social security is no life of luxury, for sure, and congress will not adjust COLA (Cost of Living Allowance) through the next year.

If a Republican becomes president, it will just get worse.

Oi, vey!

Vote for Bernie!

I missed my medications in the past few days.

I guess being stressed-out about the bed bug invasion distracted me a lot.

So, my mood is not very good.

I have been in the sort of mood where I get a lot of ideas for creative things that I would want to do, except that I don’t want to do ANYTHING at all except sleep and wait for death.

Which is really a shame, because I was kind of on a roll for a couple of days.

I produced a lot of drawings and came up with some new ideas.

I might have done more if I could get any supplies that I need.

I am resuming my medications, trying to get back on track again.

I have posted more used items in my “virtual garage sale” if anybody wants to check that stuff out on Bandcamp.

I successfully posted one item on Ebay.

But, I had trouble with some others.

So, I may just stick to selling stuff from Bandcamp where I kinda know what I am doing.

While going through some boxes, I came across a bunch of small leftover jars (like the ones I used for the “Beginner’s Luck” Microcassette-Zine).

I don’t like wasting something if I can reuse it.

So, I am making limited edition Surprise Jars.

Each jar is a little different, containing some unique items for collectors.

I will be posting an exclusive audio track to be downloaded with each purchase.

I will try to get that ready and posted soon.

I have no idea if the Island of Misfit Noise is going to perform anywhere anytime soon.

We were supposedly booked for December, but the plug got pulled.

I started on a few songs for everybody to contribute to.

But, it looks like they will just sit unused for awhile.

If any of the other collaborators wanna add something, we can still record it for the next album.

I am going to focus on my solo work for the time being.

I will try to have at least a partial live set ready, in case another gig is offered.

If I had my ShitKit built, I could put together something interesting for a Mike Damn Nobody show.

I was thinking of doing a noise-drum-vocal kind of thing, similar to Black Pus, but more chaotic.

It does not look like that will happen anytime soon, though.

I have a few parts laying around for building a noise machine, similar to Bradford Reed’s Pencilina, but kinda more like the modified guitars created by Masahiko Ohno (Solmania).

I dunno.

Maybe I should hold off on performing live again until all of this stuff is in order.

But, knowing me, NOTHING is ever in order anyway.


I want a Pepsi.

Virtual Garage Sale

0 Beastie Skills

As I clean and reorganize my apartment, I have been coming across items that I want to get rid of.
I don’t want to throw away something if it is still good.
It may be several months before the next family garage sale.
I can’t afford paying to sell my stuff on Ebay.
But, I could use a little extra money.
So, I am including used items for sale on my Bandcamp page.
I am pricing as low as the site will allow me, plus shipping.

I have also been thinking about what to do with some of my artwork.
My zine “Thee Urban SpaceCat” is going to be approximately 40 pages, give or take a few.
So, I will have a lot of leftover art after each issue is finished.
I am probably going to sell it off.
But, there is a catch.
I am only selling original artwork online to my subscribers.
I need to sell subscriptions to get some funding and it seems like a good way to solve both problems.


Get Your STAMINA Zine Copy Today!

Originally posted on Gøing ツ Ska†îηg:



Send $5.00 plus $2.50 shipping to:

P.O. Box 578401
Modesto, CA 95357
Mail Order:
PayPal: diy-publishing@att.net

STAMINA Zine Creator, ‘Rich Monday’



Send $5.00 plus $2.50 shipping to:
P.O. Box 578401
Modesto, CA 95357
Mail Order:
PayPal: diy-publishing@att.net

View original

Here’s What No One Tells You About Having Both Depression And Anxiety

Caring both too much and not at all means never winning.

[Editor’s note: Anxiety and depression affect everyone differently — but dealing with both is extremely common. Nearly one-half of people diagnosed with depression are also diagnosed with an anxiety disorder. Anxiety and depression are deeply personal, and although this list represents only one experience, we hope you find some solace in knowing others might be going through what you are.]

Jenny Chang / BuzzFeed

1. It’s freaking out at the idea of getting anything less than a stellar score on a test, but not having the energy to study.

2. It’s having to stay in bed because you don’t have the will to move, but unraveling at the thought of what will happen if you miss school or work.

3. It’s feeling more tired the less you move, but your heart racing at the thought of taking the first step.

4. It’s getting more tightly wound the more mess piles up, but only staring at it and thinking, I’ll clean tomorrow.

5. It’s making six million to-do lists just to untangle your thoughts, but knowing you’ll never actually cross anything off.

Here's What No One Tells You About Having Both Depression And Anxiety

Jenny Chang / BuzzFeed

6. It’s believing that every canceled plan will end your friendships, but not having it in you to follow through.

7. It’s feeling hopelessly low that you’re still goddamn single, but canceling every first date because the thought of going through with it gives you heart palpitations.

8. It’s fearing every day that your partner will get fed up and leave, but your anxiety whispering in your ear that they deserve better and should.

9. It’s ignoring texts and turning down invitations, and it’s aching when the texts and invitations stop.

10. It’s the constant fear of winding up alone, but accidentally isolating yourself because you sometimes just need to hide from it all.

Here's What No One Tells You About Having Both Depression And Anxiety

Jenny Chang / BuzzFeed

11. It’s wanting nothing more than to crawl home and sleep at 2 p.m., but your skittering, panicked pulse keeping you awake at 2 a.m.

12. It’s alternating between feeling paralyzed in the present and scared shitless about the future.

13. It’s not enjoying the good days because you’re too gripped by the anxiety that the next low is around the corner.

14. It’s sleeping too much or not at all.

15. It’s needing a break from your racing thoughts, but not being able to climb out of the pit of yourself.

Here's What No One Tells You About Having Both Depression And Anxiety

Jenny Chang / BuzzFeed

16. It’s needing to do everything, but wanting to do nothing at all.

17. It’s coping mechanisms and escapism, because when you’re not trying to hide from one part of your brain, you’re hiding from the other.

18. It’s wondering if the things that are making your heart feel heavy are things your anxious mind just made up.

19. It’s sitting awake at 3 a.m. worrying about a future you’re not even sure you want to have.

20. It’s feeling too much and nothing at all at the same time, which means feeling like you can never win.

But you can. And you will. You’re not alone.

To learn more about depression and anxiety, check out the resources at the National Institute of Mental Health here and here.

If you are dealing with thoughts of suicide, you can speak to someone immediately here or call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, which you can reach at 1-800-273-8255.

If you want to speak with someone anonymously, go here for additional help.