I am feeling a little better today.
My meds weren’t completely refilled this month.
I am totally out of Wellbutrin.
But, I still have some Prozac and Abilify left.
I gotta schedule an appointment to see my doctor when he is next available.
I have been meaning to find a new psychiatrist to take over my psychotropics.
But, I have been constantly broke, trying to dig myself out of an overdrafted hole with the bank for months.
Hopefully, I am far ahead enough that this will not be a problem next month.
I also hope to get some repairs done on the van.
It is rapidly falling apart and needs a lot of work.
If I can at least stop the oil and fluids from leaking, I will be more confident to drive it further.
Maybe I will even get busy on The Island of Misfit Noise Movie again, once my transportation is stabilized.
The frame is bent.
So, there is only so much that is worth putting into it.
Hopefully, I can make it last long enough until I can afford a halfway decent replacement.
I would prefer to find another Chevy van with 4×4 drive.
I am not sure if I will make any modifications to the current van or not.
I guess I could, and then just transfer them to another vehicle later.
I would like to install a high wattage inverter w/ two deep cycle batteries.
Enough power to run a refrigerator/freezer and other appliances.
I wanted to purchase a used ice cream truck for this reason.
But, it was sold before I could save up enough cash to buy it.
Ideally, I would like to prep my vehicle to be ready to live in full-time, if it really became necessary.
I have been watching a lot of vandwellers blogging on YouTube, chronicling their experiences of living nomadically.
There are lots of good tips and ideas on there.
Some are simply homeless, not by choice.
But, others have willfully chosen to live this way…for a variety of reasons.
Mostly, the cost of living is a factor.
Eric Jacobs, who lives in an RV with his cat Jax, makes me miss having a cat around.
Their travels also make me wish I was touring and playing out again.
Playing music has always been my main avenue of socializing.
I just don’t have many other interests or feel like going out anywhere for other reasons.
I guess this is why Ozzy Osbourne and other rockers never stayed retired for very long.
They don’t know how to do anything else.
I feel awkward being a solo artist, though.
I suppose that I have little choice left.
My social skills are shit and I never can keep a stable band together for very long.
Some music that I write is too complex to play alone.
It just sounds better with a real full band.
But, I guess that I can write other songs to play solo.
I am recording both, and other material that is just physically impossible to play live at all.
All of it is going into my cassette-zine, Thee Urban SpaceCat, along with my drawings, writings, and correspondences with pen friends.
I would like to publish a new issue at least every three or four months.
But, my finances are a limitation imposed on how often I could put it out there.
I am unsure when I can get it ready.
Hopefully, within the next few months.
I have tons of crap that I need to catch up on.
I need new shoes, prepping supplies, etc.
I gotta pay off my credit cards, repair the van, and other gear.
So, I am playing everything by ear, for now.
At minimum, I hope to have a live set prepared so that I can book a few shows.
Maybe it will help me to raise a little money so I can get my projects moving again.
We will see.
If anybody wants to write to me, ask questions, and maybe get your letter published in my zine my address should be there on the sidebar of my website MikeNobody.Com.